Hello again. How are you?

**I discovered this unpublished post from 3 years ago, and decided this dark moment that I was afraid to publish is worth sharing.

Wow, it has been close to two years since I have posted here. I would like to say that it is because my life has been far too full of wandering adventures to afford me time to write, but that is simply not true. As I look over the last post from 2 years ago, I find that not much has changed within me or my experiences.

I have, however, taken baby steps to achieve one of the big pieces of my list--to do work that I care about that is (somewhat) outside of the 9-5 office bubble. I fought, cried, stressed, questioned my sanity, questioned my personhood, questioned everything, and completed a Master's degree in education that additionally qualifies me for my teaching credential. This was a long and very fraught decision, but I feel that all roads for me have lead to teaching. But I still don't know if I can do it. I don't know if I am any good at it. I don't know if I can commit to ANYTHING in this life, even a life-giving wonder that teaching can be. But here I sit, waiting to take the risk and jump in, contingent on a job, that is. So, I am scared. But wandering and reflecting on this life I've chosen in the mean time.